Music:The Beginning is the End is the Beginning by Smashing Pumpkins
Happy birthday, Dad.
Depression. I know I suffer from it, but normally I have it under control. Today I can't. Today would have been my father's 64th birthday. I should be doing something to get my mind off of it, but no, I'm stuck in Wisconsin, unable to drink, unable to be by myself, thinking about him. For that, my emotions are very bad. I tried to talk to someone earlier but she wouldn't take time away from a game to listen. I didn't help the situation by being an ass, but I'm not stable when depressed. Then again, is anyone? I will apologize to her sometime later, but I doubt she'll be as forgiving. I just wish I wasn't here and wasn't sober to have to think about it.